Being mother is weird
I forget how I used to think, how I used to be before I become one
When my baby’s sick, I felt like my whole body is not functioned normally
The guilt is creeping up all over my body
When my baby sleep through the night in fever and hard to breath
I feel guilty because I can sleep and breath as usual
As if I could choose, I will take all the pain
Just like my mother used to say when I was a kid
I didn’t understand all of it until I become one
Being mother is weird
For the first time in my life, I feel guilty for breathing
I feel guilty for being healthy
I feel guilty for having an appetite
I feel guilty for everything I did normally
Being mother is weird
Your world turned into that little human you called your child
When she’s all happy and healthy, you feel it too
When she’s laughing, you feel like your heart could explode caused by happiness
When she’s sick, you fall apart, you feel like you could do better as a mother
Being mother is weird
Guess I’m still learning to accept it
To get used to this weirdness
celotehanna 